Wednesday, July 15, 2009

FACEBOOK IS THE NEW CRACK!!!

I spend way too much time on facebook and my quest for information and games and photos and, and, and........!
Bejeweled should be outlawed for it's addiction level alone!
I've found numerous ex-boyfriends and crushes on there. I always make sure my husband knows everything is on the up and up. We've had too many friend's marriages break up for infidelity.
Prying my self off the computer to go sleep and maybe actually work tomorrow! It's my last work day for the rest of the summer since my surgery is next Wednesday. Not looking forward to that but trying to keep myself occupied with more fun things!

Thursday, July 2, 2009

What I want my legacy to be

Well, it's official. I have surgery in 3 weeks. I know thyroid cancer is the most treatable/best survival rate and all those things that should comfort me. It's still a little scary to hear the word Cancer.
It's making me really think. Think about all the times my kids have been home and I'm just on the computer playing some stupid game or checking the prices of something I'm sure I don't need. Those times that I've sequestered myself into my bedroom to watch whateve I have TIVO'd. Is this really how I want my kids to remember me? The mom who when she had an audience did all kinds of things (PTO, PTA, etc, etc) but when she got home she just checked out. Then I think, well I'm just stressing myself out and expecting constant perfection from myself. I need to use this moment to think, to figure out what I want my legacy to be.
I'm not done on this earth, so I know that I'm going to be just fine. This surgery is going to go well and I'll be able to figure out the rest of my life.