My husband left again this morning. Stupidly, I had caffeine at 6 pm last night and couldn't get to sleep. Even after a great send off to my husband. He left at 5 am and I couldn't get back to sleep. I'm tired!
Last night he was saying prayers and singing songs for the littlest one to go to sleep. He kept hugging hubby and not wanting to let go. He was extra clingy. I came in to do my part of the night ritual and saw tears in my husband's eyes. I'd never seen him affected by his traveling. I think this many weeks in a row is getting to him now. He is seeing how much the kids are changing while he is away. I try my hardest to not make him feel bad about being away. He is doing what he knows best to provide for his family. He is finally in a job that he loves. How many people can say that?
We won't know for a long time if we've made the right decisions for our family. It feels right, but there is definitely a sacrifice of time. He, or course, makes quite a bit more money with this job. Plus there are the benefit of airline miles, hotel points, etc. Our family time may not be able to be measured highly in quantity but we do strive for it to measure highly in quality. We'll be able to afford family vacations and special times for our children to remember.
When I saw my husband's tears, I also cried. He left the room and I followed and tried to comfort him. I hope he feels better today. My husband is, by far, the sweetest man I have ever met but I haven't seen him cry for so long. It just really got me.
Showing posts with label husband travel. Show all posts
Showing posts with label husband travel. Show all posts
Monday, March 30, 2009
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Am I a writer?
I'm not a writer, sometimes I dream of being one. I think up all kinds of novels I could write. Romance, thriller, autobiography, yet I never find the time to write. Why? I'm a mom of three. I've got 2 pre-teens and a preschooler. I once was striving to be the perfect PTA mom, I'm lowering my standards. I'm getting too tired! So I'm writing here, no need to worry about plot line. No worry if anyone will read it. Just writing, it feels good.
I originally got inspired writing my facebook 25 random thing about me. I found it so cathartic! Once I posted my 25 thing, I wanted to write 25 more. Not because I'm trying to show off for anyone. Life as a mom can get soooo lonely sometimes. So much of my life is about doing for others and I ALWAYS forget to do for me. Or if I do remember, I fell totally guilty for not being the best mom at that moment.
So, what to write about? Hmm...well, I live in the burbs (as is obvious by my title). I'm not talking about the average burb. I live in a super wealthy, where my husband making almost 100K is considered lower end burbs. We've got our mix of people, super wealthy, a couple poor, quite a few like me. If you drove through my neighborhood, you'd be thinking we're doing alright. Other than a few people, I've got no complaints. I love my house. It's not your usual pre-fab crap. It was built in the 80's and we're working hard to bring it current. Huge yard (by burb standards) with the standard wooden Costco purchased play structure and trampoline. I learned how to install hardwood floors last spring and spent most of last summer installing Brazilian Koa floor (gorgeous by the way!)
I'm proud of being an involved mom. Like I said before, I let the perfect go by the wayside. I do wish I could figure out a way to keep my house clean. It always manages to be at it's worse when someone comes to the door. On those rare occasions that I get it all clean, I want those people that always see it messy to come by. Would it be weird to post a sign on the front yard-Come in, I'm not really the slob you might think I am!? But I guess that really is me still striving for the perfect label. Must let it go!
Anyways, I'm an involved mom. I'm in charge of a bunch of programs for each kid's school and even the VP on the oldest's PTO. I was the VP of the preschool for the littlest's school last year but decided just to do the newsletter this year. My middle child is a girl and I keep the books for her girl scout troop and man the scrip program for her school. I'm suppose to also be holding down a job that hours worked is on the honor's system and I'm not doing so well with my end of the honor!
So this blog will just be my rants of a suburban almost 40 year old mom of three whose husband travels most days of the week. Hopefully I don't sound like whiny bitch. But if you don't like it, heck don't read it. This is just my free therapy that I don't even have to hire a babysitter to have.
I originally got inspired writing my facebook 25 random thing about me. I found it so cathartic! Once I posted my 25 thing, I wanted to write 25 more. Not because I'm trying to show off for anyone. Life as a mom can get soooo lonely sometimes. So much of my life is about doing for others and I ALWAYS forget to do for me. Or if I do remember, I fell totally guilty for not being the best mom at that moment.
So, what to write about? Hmm...well, I live in the burbs (as is obvious by my title). I'm not talking about the average burb. I live in a super wealthy, where my husband making almost 100K is considered lower end burbs. We've got our mix of people, super wealthy, a couple poor, quite a few like me. If you drove through my neighborhood, you'd be thinking we're doing alright. Other than a few people, I've got no complaints. I love my house. It's not your usual pre-fab crap. It was built in the 80's and we're working hard to bring it current. Huge yard (by burb standards) with the standard wooden Costco purchased play structure and trampoline. I learned how to install hardwood floors last spring and spent most of last summer installing Brazilian Koa floor (gorgeous by the way!)
I'm proud of being an involved mom. Like I said before, I let the perfect go by the wayside. I do wish I could figure out a way to keep my house clean. It always manages to be at it's worse when someone comes to the door. On those rare occasions that I get it all clean, I want those people that always see it messy to come by. Would it be weird to post a sign on the front yard-Come in, I'm not really the slob you might think I am!? But I guess that really is me still striving for the perfect label. Must let it go!
Anyways, I'm an involved mom. I'm in charge of a bunch of programs for each kid's school and even the VP on the oldest's PTO. I was the VP of the preschool for the littlest's school last year but decided just to do the newsletter this year. My middle child is a girl and I keep the books for her girl scout troop and man the scrip program for her school. I'm suppose to also be holding down a job that hours worked is on the honor's system and I'm not doing so well with my end of the honor!
So this blog will just be my rants of a suburban almost 40 year old mom of three whose husband travels most days of the week. Hopefully I don't sound like whiny bitch. But if you don't like it, heck don't read it. This is just my free therapy that I don't even have to hire a babysitter to have.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)